THIS IS NOT AN APOLOGY
I know this is probably the only way youll see this and i know youve changed your blog name yet again. I know ive violated your privacy by looking at your blog when you wanted no one to see it, but 1) lets not be naive now, you post your private thoughts on the Internet.. thats not a very private place to do that.. maybe get a paper journal or some shit thats actuallyprivate.2) you re blogged something of my and pretty much signed your name on my dashboard by doing so, would any curious normalfriend not look at another friends mystery blog if they had the chance? honestly? thats what i thought. i also thought maybe since u did that you were in a way giving me permission to check it out again.
But to clear this up since you wouldnt let me get a word in on the phone: I did not tell her you were gay. Many other people had already told her and plenty of your other semi-friends that so it wasnt me. Yes i said i had a blog and she was like really? and i was like well yea zac has one too but she and no one else i told about MY blog (not yours cause i only mentioned that to her) knows our URL.. so pretty much that means theyll never see it. ever. okay? so it doesn’t matter that i mentioned it.
this bugs me a lot: youre incredibly self centered.. everything’s a huge fucking gayyyy drama fest with you and about you. Its all oh im lonely oh i want a man by my side oh i want to feel loved. we all do and im not trying to devalue your opinions but like can you not be happy as an intelligent independent individual with plenty of loving and caring friends surrounding and supporting you all the time? is life so miserable? and youre soooo concerned about people knowing youre gay but then you yourself have told a GOOD number of people whether you thought it was in confidence or not dont be naive yet again by thinking it wouldnt spread JUST a little even. and your closest friends havent been the ones sharing your secret.. the friends you told (i have a few in mind if you want a name list later on) have told others and not gunna lie here: YOU LOOK AND ACT… wait for the bigger shocker here: GAY! WOAH! so dont be surprised everyone knows your fucking secret. its not hard to guess. and theres someone out there who knows and will confirm it. so stop being such a baby about it and go on with life like its good (cause it is) and like your leaving in a few weeks (cause you are, and yes you actually are tough not to miss even though you piss me the fuck off sometimes i still care about you a ton) and like youre parents wont find out fo sho (cause they wont, and if they do you can just LIE again and theyll buy it cause they dont want to accept the truth) soo stop being a prissy little drama queen about your blog and your boyfriends and your secrets and who knows what.. cause guess what? no one actually cares that much about trivial matters like that. youre 18. you have a whole future ahead of you. these people you know now will seem so insignificant later on. so take a big breath, go to your happy place. and get over it!
okay ive said what i want to. and you can talk to me again when youre cooled down. im assuming our plans are off for tomorrow unless you say otherwise. dont be a stubborn bitch you dink. :)
